Sunday, April 30, 2006

We sat in the kitchen and said nothing, staring out of the window while i ate my sandwich. There's a new building i've never noticed before, then i realised, i never said at the time but it's the building with the scaffolding, the tunnel underneath to walk under, the tunnel i was walking under on friday night and it seemed like a dream because i was staring at it with my eyes open and it just stretched further and further no matter how far along it i walked.

I'm writing about World Dance Day, it's awful. Maybe i'll go and make some tea.

My music is full of beeps and squiggles, it's freaking me out a little, i like it.

Monday, April 24, 2006

It's really sunny today, Claire and i wore sunglasses. We got free Subway with the card full of stamps i found on the floor of the Prince and it made me feel sick because i drank my lemonade too fast. Claire's lemonadeanddietcoke drink made her cold, she had goosebumps.
We shop in Aldi, but we don't look like we shop in Aldi, although the bags are a dead giveaway.

I think i have stopped liking someone. Instead i have gone back to loving those same people (that same person) all over again. This happens every single time.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

you can keep your brains if you can get away
you can keep your brains if you can get away

you cankeep your brains if you can getaway

youcankeep your brains if youcanget.........................away


youcankeep..............your brains..............ifyoucangetaway



youcankeepyourbrainsifyoucangetaway
youcankeepyourbrainsifyoucangetaway
youcankeepyourbrainsifyoucangetaway Envelopes and fireballs.

I'm thinking about wednesday. We went for Chinese and ate a lot of food as usual. I think it reminded me of school and why we are friends even though we are very different now. Last night we were 15 years old again. We put salt in the water and nearly set the place on fire. The couple siting opposite us were dead, when they moved i said "the dead people just moved, they're creepy" and they were, their faces were white and they sat very still the whole time, occasionally sipping their wine. When i got home i wrote a message to Sarah that said "I'm so, so full i think i am going to die. Chinese food will be the death of me." Perhaps Chinese food was the death of that couple too. I laughed so much i almost cried and my ribs and my sides and my back hurt. We had pregnancy stomachs.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

I have a headache and i've started biting my nails again. I'm copying reading interviews in magazines.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Some of my favourite clothes are missing in action so i’m wearing a jumper that used to belong to my grandmother. It is pink and reversible and has a black picture of Mickey Mouse on it. This reminds me of last week when i went to Northampton. In one shop they had a second hand clothes section and hanging on the rail was a dress that my Grandma owns. She is 84 and she still wears it in the summer, it’s an old lady style summer dress and i could have bought it and be wearing the same clothes as my Grandma. My hair looks a bit of a mess today but i quite like it. I wish it were longer, but i’m thinking about cutting it short.

Deux hot dogs moutade chou. Currently i love the new adverts for Popworld with Alex and Alexa. I'm learning the dance in my living room.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Ultimately i'm trying to write about how i sort of skirt around my mother, and miss my sister because she's so different even though she hasn't changed and things between us are the same, if not better than always and she's my best friend. My other friends are mostly a bit tangled up, i'm making a mess of being back this easter, so sorry for that, R. I think about C quite a lot, and i'm glad she's nearby because suddenly she's become... wow. At the moment i am listening to new Jack White (it is very good) and eating some chipsticks. I think chipsticks, along with space raiders, have gone out of fashion apart from in our flat at university. Even though i am not at university just now. I am eating chipsticks because they are a break from chocolate. I have been making chocolate recipes both because it is Easter and seems appropriate and because i am terribly bored and am putting off writing news stories for which i have no inspiration and am beginning to panic. Reletives keep saying "do you have a lot of work?" and i always say no, not really, because i didn't. Except now i do because i'd rather spend my time watching The Apprentice and Green Wing and being stupid throwing bottles around clubs and nearly getting thrown out.
I made a cake, which was excellent and some fridge cake which was even more excellent apart from having to leave it in the fridge for 12 hours before i could eat any. My Dad liked the fridge cake, he ate a lot of it and when i went to get some on Sunday after a reunion at the pub of bad music and good friends it was all gone.
It saddens me, in a way, that i'm only home with people i've known practically my whole life for two weeks yet i'm so bored and just waste a great deal of my time here.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Back to the drag of life back home and after a brilliant last two weeks at university life here seems slower than ever. My parents bought me a record player so i can spin a few tunes, although it's mostly just interpol singles because all of the records i bought (despite not actually having anything to play them on at the time) are in Preston.

P-P-P-P-P-P-P-P-PPPPRRREESSSTON!

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